“We are our choices.”
“The right choice is hardly ever the easy choice.”
Rick Riordan, The Throne of Fire
A thought occurred to me that occurs often. “It’s the weekend (vacation/night/day off/Tuesday). Shouldn’t I take some time off? Shouldn’t I take a little break?” As I said, this thought occurs often. I think I finally have an answer.
Yes, I can take a break. Maybe I should. Maybe I deserve one. Maybe I will. But it’s curious how often this thought comes. It’s curious how tired I suddenly get when it’s time to do my work. It’s curious how my breaks rarely help me feel as rested as completing my work does.
What is it I’m taking a break from? Why am I so tired or in need of rest? I don’t feel that tired when I’m playing Candy Crush or reading a comic book. But when it’s time to work, suddenly I’m sleepy. There are only two things that cure that – I can take a nap or I can keep working. For now I’m going to keep working. I’m going to write one more blog and get closer to my goal. Then maybe I’ll take a quick nap. Or maybe I’ll read some more.
I’m determined to end this summer feeling like I accomplished some things and that I used my time well. I still feel that I waste a lot of time, so that’s why I want to finish this blog. I don’t want to waste time. I want to get closer to my goals.
Here are my choices:
I could finish this blog now and then another one tomorrow morning,
I could go to sleep and finish this tomorrow.
I could work straight through without stopping,
I could go to eBay or Facebook every few minutes.
I could keep working until I’m sure it’s time to stop,
I could take breaks whenever something distracts me.
I could get up at 5:00 a.m. and get most of my work done by 7:00 a.m.
I could get up at 8:00 a.m. and not be done until noon, if at all.
I could work with gratitude for my Purpose,
I could complain that I shouldn’t have to work during my summer break,
I could read more books, books that give me ideas and help me improve as a writer
I could read comic books, which I genuinely enjoy, but don’t benefit from as a writer
All my first choices have this in common: they are more difficult. All my second choices are easier, at least in the immediate. My first choices do not guarantee my success, but my second choices guarantee that I won’t succeed. So I keep working. Maybe I’ll take a break later. I’m not against them. But if I’m not diligent, they will work against me.