“The best way to serve God is by going in search of your own dreams. Only the happy can spread happiness.”
Sometimes, often actually, I sit down in front of this blank screen that has what looks like a blank piece of typing paper on it, and I wonder, “What in the world do I have to say?” I have no idea most of the time. Sometimes, like now, I just write things as they come to me, one word, one sentence at a time. Stephen King says in On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft, that I need to read and write for four to six hours a day. I’m probably at 2½ so I have work to do. I still feel like I waste too much time. I need to be more self-disciplined if I want to do this. It doesn’t feel like a burden though. Sitting alone with my Muse seems like the very best way to spend my time.
I know there are voices that will argue. There are those who will say I can and should spend my time differently. These voices are in my head and they are me. Perhaps they are making a valid point. But I don’t think so. I think that guilt, fear, or regret are just tricks of the Enemy to keep me off track from my writing. Does this mean that I shut out the world and my responsibilities in order to write? No and yes.
I don’t shut out the world, but I don’t let it take over my life. This is a difficult message to deliver and to hear, but in order to be fully in Purpose, I must prioritize my life. I must use my time well. This requires proper time management. More importantly, it requires knowing what I really want and then not allowing anything to stop me. Obstacles will come, “as night follows day,” but if I want to be in my Purpose, then I need to get over or avoid those obstacles. I need to keep working. My greatest obstacles – fear, procrastination, laziness, guilt, regret – anything that comes from the mind all need to be dealt with quickly, or ignored.
So here’s how I see it: my Purpose is to read, write, spend my life with my Muse and get my house on the beach. This may seem selfish, but it is the way I can be more focused on those I love. It is my way to success, peace, and serving God. There may be those who disagree, but I find my critics are rarely invested in me. They are more concerned that I live life their way. I have no more time for them, just as I have no more time for the voices in my head.
At the same time, my calling doesn’t excuse me from being kind, loving, and responsible. In order to do this, I must, I must, I must use my time well. And when I am not sitting in this chair with my Muse, I must, I must, I must be present wherever else I am.
That’s it. That’s all there is to it. I want to be at work with my Muse or I want to be in relationship, with God, others, and myself. That’s my Purpose. Everything else seems like a waste of time.
Was this a manifesto or just some random thoughts written in order to reach my goals? I don’t know. I just know that I’m still working on using my time better. I’m also working on being the man I just wrote about. Finally, I know that I need to be reminded and motivated to Get Started and Keep Going every day.