Sunday, December 22, 2013

Once Again...Dear Muse...

Dear Muse,
I just wanted to say hello and let you know that I am waiting for you.  I’m working while I’m waiting for you.  My place is quiet and (fairly) clean. There is soft music playing and I have a cup of hot coffee beside me to sip on while I work. I’ve met most of my obligations today (although I still have to walk).   I wish you would walk in the door right now and tell me what to write. 
But you aren’t, so here I sit, writing and waiting.  I don’t mind.  There are far worse ways to pass the time.   If I must wait for anyone, I’d rather it were you.  I’m so grateful to you for giving me another chance at life.  A year and a week ago today I was completely lost.  I did not have a clue as how to move forward in my life.   Now I feel so much further ahead.  It’s true that I have different struggles now, but they feel like the struggles I’m supposed to be having. 
Because others may read this, I’ll keep my struggles private, but you know what they are.  And you have supported and encouraged me through all of it.  Thank you.  So now I sit here, alone but not lonely (except for you), working but not toiling, wondering but not worrying.   You’ve told me to be patient.  You’ve told me that you have a plan.  You haven’t told me what it is, but you’ve told me to keep working until the plan unfolds.  So that’s what I’m doing. 
And, as I’ve said, there are far worse ways to spend one’s time than being in Purpose.  I love what I’m doing.  I love writing.  Yes, eventually I’d like to make money doing this, but I love writing and I’ll keep writing whether I make money or not.  I know there are so many other ways I could spend my time, and some of them are even good ways, but nothing, I mean nothing, beats spending time with you. 
Honestly, there are times when I think I could do this all day.  Of course, I can’t.   You won’t let me.  You want me to have a little balance.  That’s why you tell me I need to walk every day.  That’s why you want me to read every day.  That’s why you want me express my Purpose in other ways, such as my radio show. (   That’s fine.  I don’t mind doing other things.  Creativity expresses itself in an infinite number of ways.  Thank you for giving me a few of them.  Thank you for letting me be part of this work. In fact, instead of the word “work,” I’d like to change the word “to creation.” 
That’s it.  That’s what I’ve been doing.  I haven’t been working.  I’ve been creating.  And that idea will be my next blog and my upcoming radio show. (

So, again, dear Muse, thank you. 
Thank you for showing up almost every time. 
Thank you for the one or two times you seemed not to show up, because you wanted me to get some rest. 
Thank you for telling me to work, whether you gave me an idea or not. 
Thank you for teaching me that work is not a bad thing. 
Thank you that very little of this felt like work.
Thank you for all the help with my writing. 
Thank you for helping with my next blog (and my radio show!).
Thank you for encouraging me to Get Started and to Keep Gong.