Friday, December 27, 2013

A Thoroughly Useless Blog


"Talent is a matter of quantity. Talent does not write one page, it writes three hundred."



Jules Renard 




Really, what I want more than anything right now is to sleep.  After that, I want to write.  In fact, I think I’d like to sit here and write without stopping for the next hour or so.  I cannot express enough how grateful I am to be in a warm and quiet place and be able to write.  What a gift I’ve been given.  I’m trying to use this gift wisely by using the other gift I’ve been given – writing.  At the moment I have some soft music playing and a warm cup of coffee beside me.  The only thing that would make this better would be to be doing this in my house on the beach.   I’m not complaining.  I love what I have.  And I love what I will have.
Sometimes the writing is just about the writing for me.  It’s not about the blogs or my hopes that I will write for a living some day.  It’s about the joy of sitting here and watching words form on the screen as my fingers move across the keyboard.  It’s also about the joy of being alone with my Muse and looking up occasionally to see her proud smile.  I feel happy to be alone with her and I don’t need anyone else.
It’s not that I don’t like people.  I love people.  In fact, I met some friends from high school tonight and I genuinely enjoyed seeing them.  I’ve been so fortunate to have old friends and new from the many different stages of my life.   When I get home though, I discover a different kind of joy.  This is the joy of creating something.  This is a joy and a privilege. 
So here I sit, tired and writing.  I still have to exercise, too.  So far I’ve only missed one day. 
Sometimes all of this may seem like rambling and maybe it is, but this is the process I go through almost every time as a writer.  I don’t know what to say, so I just keep writing.  It may all be nonsense, but I don’t care.  When I look up, I see the Muse is still smiling.  She isn’t giving me anything yet, but the smile is a good sign.  This is what she wants me to be doing.  The good thing is that even though none of this may be part of my blog and even though it might all get erased, I’m still doing the right thing here.  Writing may be one of the few places where one can ramble on and on and not bother anyone.  It doesn’t get any better than that. 
I took a short nap and soon I have to stop because it’s almost time to do my radio show.   So that leads to some interesting questions:
·      What if this were my blog?
·      Would this be worth reading?
·      Would people find it interesting or annoying?
·      Does it really matter?
·      Can quantity be quality?
·      Should I delete this or use it as one step closer to my goal?

I’m going to publish this for the following reasons:
·      It may not be my best work, but it’s not my worst.
·      Sometimes quantity is quality.
·      This is how it goes in Purpose sometimes.  I once told my daughter, “It doesn’t have to be sexy.  It just has to get done.”  She told me that helped her.  So I’m following my own advice.
Perhaps this is a thoroughly useless blog, but I don’t think so.  I followed my maxim to Get Started and Keep Going and I’m going to continue to do so in my radio show. http://www.blogtalkradio.com/robert-farrell/2013/12/28/this-is-the-really-really-hard-part  I’m almost to my goal!