Life Story

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.”

Maya Angelou

I have some time to myself, so I thought I’d take advantage of that and write.  I may be too tired tonight or may want to do something else.  If I use this time well, I can get another blog written and maybe do my radio show.  There are always things to do and maybe I should write these tasks down, but I know, among other things, I want to write1000 blogs, so this then is time well spent.  As is often the case, I’m not sure what to write about, so I’ll just keep my fingers moving and try not to get distracted. 

Distractions come so easily to me.  I am who I am, but sometimes I wish my mind would calm down a little.   Right now I could take a nap or go to the Post Office or do my radio show or clean my place or clean my car.  I could read or study.  There are so many choices.  So I write.  This may or may not be the best use of my time, but it’s what I choose to do.  The trick is to not listen to the Enemy when it says this isn’t the best use of my time.  The truth is that if I were doing one of the things mentioned above, I would be accused of the same thing.  It’s good to remember that sometimes there are no wrong choices.  So it’s good to consider the benefits of writing this blog.

·      I’m one closer to 1000.

·      I’m producing something.

·      Every minute I put into my writing is a minute I spend developing my skills.

·      It’s fun to see what will happen because even I don’t know what most of my blogs will be about until they are done.

·      I’m one closer to 1000.

Why is that last goal so important to me?   It’s important because it is a goal and goals, worthwhile goals, are hard to reach.  They take time.  They create excitement, anticipation, fear and dread.  A goal requires an adventure and the person who reaches his or her goal is the not same person who set that goal.  Reaching a goal creates personal change.  Every time I reach a goal I am just a little stronger and wiser.  I may also be a little more scarred.  I have gone through a fire, but it has been a cleansing fire.

So I work towards my next 495 blogs with no idea what will come.  What experience has taught me is that by setting a goal, I have created a far richer and more interesting life.   It won’t be an easy life, but it will be much easier than a life without goals.  It also won’t be an effortless life.  It will require much more effort than a life without goals.  It will also create more rewards and a better story when it’s all over.

When I use the term “life story,” I am reminded that each of our lives is an individual life story, even though it is linked with so many other lives.  I would like my story to be one worth telling.  Yes, I have an interesting origin – an abandoned infant on the streets of Ankara, Turkey, placed in an orphanage, neglected to the point of near-starvation, adopted and then traveling to different countries.  But those are only things that happened to me.  To have an interesting life-story I have to make things happen.  I have to write my own life story and not allow circumstances to write it.  I have to Get Started and Keep Going…and see where the adventure takes me.