Wednesday, April 16, 2014

I Do What I Can

I am tired.  I should go to bed.  I don’t even want to write.  And that’s usually the best time for writing.  But I’m going to make this a short one.  I’ve said it before, but sometimes quantity is just as important as quality.  It’s not that I want to write something bad; it’s just that I want to write something.  I want to get closer to my goal of 1000 blogs and every little bit helps.  I’m actually falling asleep as I’m writing this, so I need to be quick.
At the moment all the negative voices in my head are yelling at me.  They are telling me to go to bed, not out of concern, but because they don’t want me to get this done.  So I’m just going to sit here for a few minutes and get something done.
Ideally, my life would allow for me to write for three or four hours every morning.  But I’m not there yet.   I still have to go to work in the mornings.  So I write for an hour or so every morning.  I do what I can.  I write when I can.  I give all I can.  That’s all I can do.  My hope is that one day someone will look at my work favorably and I’ll be able to do this every morning for as long as I’d like without having to rush somewhere.  But for now I do what I can.
And this is all I can do for now. 
I promised my Muse I would try to write every day.  But I also promised her that I would take care of my health.
Recently I visited someone in the hospital.  I saw how scared he looked when he had to get a procedure.  I don’t want to go through that.  More importantly, I don’t want to put someone else through that.  So I’m going to take care of my health. 
I’m going to live a long time so I can spend that time with my Muse.  I’m going to live a long time so I can write a lot more.  I’ll do what I can.
Right now what I can do is Get Started and Keep Going…but first I’m going to get some sleep.  Then tomorrow I’ll do what I can.