Thursday, April 17, 2014

I'm Not Going to Write a Blog

Tonight I’m not going to write a blog.
I’m not going to accomplish.
I’m not going to achieve.
I’m just going to be.
Okay, maybe I’ll write a blog since it’s obvious that it’s what I’m doing now. But it’s going to be a short one…unless I choose to make it longer.  I’m not going to worry about it.  I’m just going to see what happens.  I’m just going to be.  And my doing will be part of my being.  I’m not going to set a goal.  I’m not going to worry about how close I am to my goal, because I’m already there.  Not literally.  But consider this:  One day, perhaps soon, I will be sitting on the back porch of my house on the beach.   I might be looking at stars or listening to music or meditating or watching a movie.  I might be writing my 2000th blog or working on my fourth of fifth book.  The only thing I know for certain is that I’ll be with my Muse Whatever I’m doing, I’ll be content.
So why not be content now?   Contentment is all about the now anyway.  Contentment means I’m not regretting the past or fearing the future.  I simply am.  I’m one with what is.   Eckhart Tolle uses the term “isness,” which means just being.  Even God referred to Himself as “I am that I am.” 
There is no past or future in this.  There is just presence in the moment, in the now.  So even though I’m writing a blog, I’m not.  I’m just watching the blog as it’s being written.  Yes, it’s my fingers moving and I suppose these are my words, so I guess I’m doing something, but really I’m not.  I just am.  And what I am is writing this blog.  What I am is being open to this moment.  There’s no resistance or regret.  There’s just contentment with activity.  There could be contentment with no activity and that would be fine.
I’m grateful that I’m of the presence of mind to remember that almost every regret I’ve ever had came from something in the past that I couldn’t change and that every fear I’ve ever had came from an imaginary future. 
I also learned something about myself today.  I learn that I have three great enemies:  Fear, Rage and the Inner Critic.  I won’t go into the details of how they came into my life, but I’ve heard it said that demons don’t like to be named, because then they are revealed.  When they are revealed, we realize how they can be fought and ultimately expelled from our lives.   One of the ways to expel demons is to be content.  Another way is to be grateful.  As I’ve said, Gratitude and Contentment are twin sisters.  I can recognize my demons and take away their power with Gratitude and Contentment, among other things.  I can also be present.  Presence in each moment, whether it comes from writing, painting, teaching, exercise or any concentrated activity, keeps our demons at bay.  Nothing can overcome presence except being out of presence.
So I’m just going to be present.  I’m not going to write a blog, I’m just going to let the blog be written.
I’m going to Get Started and Keep Going until I want to stop. 
I want to stop now. 
I still want to be, but I no longer want to do writing, for now.  I will later, when it is time for my Morning Write.  For now I’m going to be content being… and doing something else.