Friday, October 18, 2013

The Man I Want to Be

“Introverts treasure the close relationships they have stretched so much to make.”

“We can't underestimate the value of silence. We need to create ourselves, need to spend time alone. If you don't, you risk not knowing yourself and not realizing your dreams.”

“Introverts think carefully before they speak. We can be excellent public speakers because we prepare carefully.”

It feels so good to sit here and write.  I feel so blessed to be able to do this whenever I can.  I love being in my Purpose.  Here is what being in Purpose does for me:
·      It gives my life structure.
·      It gives me something to look forward to.
·      It makes me more productive.
·      It makes me happier.
·      It keeps me off the wrong paths.
·      It gives me something to contribute to the world.
·      It is one of the few times that I am being the man I want to be.

Obviously, my Purpose, or one of my purposes is writing.  I’m still thinking about the 10,000 –hour rule.  I’m envisioning my success as a writer and the fulfillment of my desire to read, write and study in my house on the beach.  Those are the things I want to do most.  Those are the things that fill me with excitement and joy.  I feel so blessed and grateful for the desires God has given me and for the ability to express those desires.  It is, as I said, one of the few times that I am the man I want to be.  And who is that man?
He is…
·      Peaceful
·      Joyful
·      Loving
·      Productive
·      Creative
·      Able to be alone.

One of the surprises since I’ve started writing is the discovery of my introverted side.  My extroverted side has always been very obvious.  I’ve had a lot of friends.  I like an audience.  I like being in front of people and inspiring or entertaining.  And, yes, I like attention.  But lately, I’ve become increasingly content to just be alone, sometimes for hours, to just write and read.  I love people, but the need I use to have for company seems to have decreased greatly.  I recognize that some of that need was based on fear.  Curiously, my decreased need for attention has caused me to love and appreciate people more, not less.  Maybe I’m seeing people as people and not as a means to an end. 
Part of my reason for wanting to spend more time alone is that I know I can serve the world more effectively this way.  I can go out and maybe positively affect a handful of people.  Or I can stay in and write and have a positive affect on potentially thousands of people.  Without seeing or talking to anyone, I can encourage and inspire and bless.
Again, I’m not saying I don’t need or want people.  Nor do I want to be alone all the time.  But eventually, I’d like to spend as much time in my house on the beach as possible.  That would be ideal.
Of course, the other thing that makes my solitary time ideal is that I use it constructively.  It doesn’t help to be alone if I don’t use my time well.  Misuse of my time blesses no one and is in fact a sin.  In The Ten X Rule, Grant Cardone says I have an ethical duty to be successful.  The only way I can see being successful is if I do my best, if I do my work every day.
So I did it today.  Not very well, actually.  I still let myself get distracted.  I didn’t stay focused.  This blog took longer to write than it should have, and it will probably be shorter than most of my blogs. 
Still, despite my shortcomings, I did it.  I got it done.  Two blogs were written today.  I’m closer to my goal.  Perhaps my shortcomings, as much as they frustrate me, can also be a blessing.  Maybe someone who is reading this and trying to find his or her own purpose wont feel so alone when he or she struggles to find his or her own purpose. 
When I write, I am the man I want to be.  But I’m not always that man when I’m not writing.  Perhaps the answer to that is to write more often.  That is one of the reasons I set the goal of two blogs a day.  It gives me more time to be the man I want to be.  The man I am when I write, the man I am whenever I am in any of my purposes is the man I want to be.   He knows how to Get Started and Keep Going.