Friday, June 21, 2013

No Distractions

Christopher Columbus

I’m going to try to do two things in the next few minutes:
  1. I’m going to try to write one more blog before going to bed.
  2. I’ m going to try to write without stopping.
  3. I’m going to not let anything distract or interrupt me.

Now I know what Yoda said in Star Wars: The Empire Strikes Back:  “Do or do not.  There is no try.” 
I like that quote; I’ve often used it myself.  But trying is all I can do.  I know my habits and flaws and weaknesses.  I’m not making excuses for them or justifying them.  I just know them.  And for me to say that I’m going to write without pause, distraction or interruption, well, that’s saying a lot.
But here I am trying anyway.  I’ve toyed with the idea for a while now.  I’ve often been told that the first draft should be written straight through and then I go back and edit it.  But I hate those little red and green lines under the words where Microsoft believes I made a mistake.  So I go back and edit right away.  That’s probably not going to change.  I choose not to change that for now.
But what about the interruptions and distractions?  Well, that I have a little better control over, but only a little.  I recognize that my ADHD or my ADHD-like symptoms make it difficult for me to keep one thought in my head at a time.  Still, I’m doing my best to not give in to checking Facebook or e-mail.  This is not easy for me.  Right now my phone just buzzed and I’m dying to check it.  But I’m not going to; I’m going to keep writing. 
Why am I doing all this anyway?  Well, I’m writing another blog so that I can get closer to my goal.  I don’t have to.  I may not even reach my goal, but I’m going to do my best.  After this, if I’m still tired, I can go to bed.  If I’m not, maybe I can watch a movie.   Either way I will enjoy sleep or a movie more if I can just be diligent and focused for a few more minutes. 
Here’s the thing:  every time I write a blog, the following happens:
1.     I get closer to my goal.
2.     I strengthen my writing skills.
3.     I feel better about myself.
4.     I have one more blog that I will enjoy reading.

With regard to that last statement, I don’t want to be immodest, but I really enjoy reading my own work.  I almost always have.  Now I’ve written over 120 blogs.  And so far, I enjoy reading all of them.  Even if no one else reads them, I can enjoy them.  According to the numbers, not a lot of people are reading them, but that’s okay.  I’m going to keep working and keep writing until I get the results I want.  And as I said, I enjoy reading them.  It’s fun to create something, almost anything good that brings joy and assistance to others and say, “Wow!  I did that!”  That’s how I often feel when I read my blogs.  And this doesn’t lead to conceit.  Just the opposite.  It’s a very humbling experience to see your own work.  I know I’m the one sitting here at the keyboard, but I still believe these words and this work comes from a power far greater than me.  I’m not a creator of this work; I’m a co-creator at best.
I think that’s part of the beauty of being in Purpose – watching something supernatural work through me.  I think that’s why I enjoy reading my own work so much – it’s not really mine.
I’m falling asleep now so I’m ready to finish.  I am happy because I kept my promise to myself.  I worked without allowing interruptions or distractions.  And I finished this blog in record time.  Now my time is mine.  But tomorrow morning when I wake up I will Get Started and I will Keep Going.