Friday, September 27, 2013

Because I Said I Would

James Womack

It’s ironic that one of my radio show episodes is called, “Good Morning,” because this morning wasn’t as good as I would have liked.  It could have been worse, but I woke up with the worst case of vertigo I’ve had in a long time.  Fortunately I got prayer and support.   Part of the reason for my vertigo may have been stress.  I was very worried about a meeting I had today.  In fact, I was so worried that before the meeting started I thought I was going to be sick in the waiting area.  Then suddenly a call came and it was the right person at the right time and within minutes I was feeling better and able to be productive in the meeting.
Part of the reason I write is so that I can see, on a regular basis, the man I want to be.   The man I am is not a bad guy, but he gets stressed a little too much.  So, every day, I write so I can remind myself of who I am and who I want to be.
In A Return to Love, Marianne Williamson discusses relationships and says, “A holy relationship starts with a different premise.  Each one has looked within and seen no lack.  Accepting his completion, he would extend it by joining with another, whole as himself.” 
Writing makes me feel whole.
Another reason I write is because I find it therapeutic.  I can express whatever thoughts and feelings I want and people can read them or not.  It doesn’t matter though, because I’m writing for me.  Writing has been healing.  I’ve made more forward movement in the last five months than I have in the last five years.  I think a big part of the reason for this is because I took control of one area of my life and that created control in other areas.
This is why Purpose is so important to me.  As I’ve said before, the Purpose of Purpose is love.  But where does this love come from and where does it go?  It comes from us and it goes out to our immediate world or to the world at large.  But it also comes from God.  It’s not only God’s gift in us, it’s God’s gift for us.
So I write.  And I realize that I have to write almost every day.  Without it, I don’t do as well.  I don’t necessarily have to write a blog every day; I can write in my journal.  But I do need to write every day.  I’m also convinced of this:  Writing is a part of my purpose, so the more I do it, the more connected to God I feel. 
I also do this because I said I would.  Even at this moment when I feel like I don’t have a lot to say, it feels good to write.  It feels good to produce something.  In The War of Art, Steven Pressfield says he writes for about four hours every day.  Then he says,
“How many pages have I produced?  I don’t care.  Are they any good?  I don’t even think about it.  All that matter is that I’ve put it in my time and hit with all I’ve got.  All that counts is that for this day, for this session, I have overcome Resistance.”

So that’s what I have to do.  I have to put in my time and hit it with all I’ve got.  I can’t allow myself to be distracted.  I just need to write.  I’ll be honest here:  It’s easy to get distracted when I’m writing.  I have no one to answer to but me.  I can do this at my own pace.  I can go as quickly or as slowly as I want.  The challenge, and here’s where the real growth comes, is in giving it all I’ve got.  Specifically for me, that means not looking at Facebook or playing a game during my writing time.  This is a point of growth for me.  Recognizing it is also a point of growth.  Changing it is the truest point of growth.
Really, I feel like I don’t have much to say tonight.  I’m writing because I said I would.  Maybe this will be my worst blog ever, but I don’t care. At least I’ve done my work.  At least I’ve hit it with all I’ve got.  Even though I’m tired and started the day off being sick, I’m glad I did this.  I’m glad I wrote one more time.  I’m glad I remembered to Get Started and Keep Going.  I hope it encourages you to be in your Purpose.