Wednesday, May 28, 2014

Strange Day

"Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope."

Maya Angelou

Maya Angelou died today.  The world has lost a great poet and thinker.  This quote is her gift to me.  Today was strange.  Everything seemed off.   I didn’t sleep well  and then I overslept.  I didn’t finish my Morning Write.  The people I wanted to talk to weren’t available.  Others felt distant and it was probably all in my head, but that didn’t make it any less difficult.  I worked hard to return to joy.  I was successful for much of the morning, but then fear started creeping back.  Then things seemed better and then strange and unresolved again.  There wasn’t much I could do about it. 
Well, that’s not completely true.  I could pray, drink water, tap and ask for prayer.  I could talk to my Muse (the best part of my day) and I could work.  I was also able to recognize that unexpected changes alarm me.  I did all of these things and they helped.  I didn’t have a panic attack, even though it came close.  Still, I struggle with the fear that things will not go the way I have hoped.  I wonder if my Muse will one day leave me and I will have nothing more to write. 
Then I saw this quote and I realized that following:
·      My Muse will never leave me.
·      Today was a hard day, but it was just one day.  Tomorrow will be different.  It may be better or worse, but it will be different. 
·      If tomorrow is worse, then eventually things will get better.
·      No matter what…
·      No matter what…
·      No matter what…
·      No matter what, I’m gong to get my house on the beach and spend my life with my Muse.
·      If love recognizes no barriers, neither do I.  I can’t.  Whatever happens, I am reaching my goal.  There is no Plan B.
·      My destination is full of hope, but so is my journey, even on strange days like today.
·      I’m going to Get Started and Keep Going every day…because love recognizes no other way…and I’m in love.