Thursday, November 13, 2014

Just Staying Consistent...

Sometimes when I start writing I allow myself to get distracted.  This is rarely a good idea.  What I have learned is that if I really want to write well, I have to stay focused.  Otherwise, I lose my train of thought.  I come back to my writing eventually, but now it feels forced and false.  So I’m starting over with a new page and I’m going to keep writing until I’m done. 
I wonder if other people who are trying to improve their lives go through this.  Honestly, it can be frustrating sitting here, night after night, pounding something out, wondering if I’m any good, wondering if I’m going to reach my goals, wondering how long it will take.
Then I remember that it doesn’t matter.  My frustration, fear, sadness, even my distractions don’t matter, as long as I keep going.  That’s why I started a whole new blog.  I allowed myself to get distracted and irritated.  It was like taking a wrong path, but starting another blog was like turning around and going on a better path.
This is what’s required.  I come here, night after night, and keep working.  When I am able to support myself doing this, then I will still be here night after night.  I don’t think this will ever stop, unless God Himself gives me a different assignment.  As I see it, I’m still not dedicated enough.  This is not the inner critic.  I just think I could work harder and to do more to reach my goals.  I could read more.  I could exercise more.  I could save more money.  There is more that I can do.
At the same time, I’m happy with the progress I’ve made.  Writing over 750 blogs is no small feat.  I’ve done well and I want to do better.  We should all be able to say the same thing.
We should all be content and we should all be dissatisfied at the same time.  We should all want more, not to spend it on ourselves, but on a world that is hurting and needs our talents and abilities.  Reaching our goals is not the end of the journey, but the beginning of a new one.
After I get my house on the beach, I have no idea what my goal will be.  At this point, it doesn’t matter.  One goal at a time is enough.

That’s all I have to say tonight.  Thank you, Muse, for spending time with me.  As always, it’s too short, but every moment with you is wonderful.  You are the reason I have learned to Get Started and Keep Going.