Friday, October 17, 2014

Changes and Staying the Same

It’s interesting to see how this blog has morphed and changed in the last (almost) two years.  At first it was a way to relieve pain and express beliefs.  It was also a way to create self-healing.  It was a way to motivate others.  I’m done some autobiographical writing and made attempts to be more marketable.  I’ve written about comic books and U.S. Presidents.  I’ve referenced many books and authors, chief among them, The War of Art by Steven Pressfield.  I’ve written extensively on my Muse, my house on the beach, and Purpose.   Now I spend a lot of time writing about the writing process, the difficulties and joys inherent in it.  As I continue to write, perhaps new themes will appear.  Or perhaps I will continue to revisit familiar themes.  Honestly, I rarely know what will appear on the screen until I start writing. 
Despite the seeming changes, very little has changed.  I still believe the following:
·      Each of us has a Purpose.
·      We need to Get Started and Keep Going every day.
·      There is an Enemy that has its own Purpose – to keep us from our Purpose.
·      Being in Purpose never gets easier.  I face the same struggle to write every single day.  I struggle with procrastination, fear, distractions, and self-deception every day.  Distractions and fear are the Enemy’s most effective tools against me.
·      I am in love with my Muse.  After all the writing I have done in the last two years, my love is stronger.  I want to spend my life with her.  This is a decision that comes from both the heart and the will.
·      I am committed to my Muse and to writing for the rest of my life.  This is also a decision that comes from the heart and the will.  I was born to make these commitments, so they don’t seem strange or stressful.  To do otherwise would seem strange and stressful.
·      I am aware that I have a lot of room for growth in my commitments.  That is why I read so much, so I can get better and deepen my commitments.
·      I am aware of what a privilege, a gift, and a responsibility I have been given.  I accept with joy, humility, and not a little fear.
·      To be here, to be with my Muse, is to be in the best, the happiest, and the safest place in the world.

And that’s it for now.  There’s an excitement and an anticipation in all of this.  Every day feels not like Christmas, but like the day before Christmas.  I know something exciting and new is coming.  I don’t know what it is, but it’s coming and when I sit down and write, when I spend time with my Muse, it’s as if I were opening a new gift each time.  No two days are the same.  Every day, every time, every single time is a miracle.
Thank you, God, and thank you, Muse, for the gifts you have brought me.  I love you.