Monday, February 23, 2015

"A Thousand Years"

“Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone,
All of my doubt suddenly goes away somehow.

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

Time stands still
Beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died every day waiting for you
Darling, don't be afraid I have loved you
For a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you
Time has brought your heart to me
I have loved you for a thousand years
I'll love you for a thousand more

One step closer
One step closer”
Christina Perri – A Thousand Years
With A Thousand Years by Christina Perri playing in the background, I realize how short and how precious life is, every moment.  I also realize we are always at risk for losing sight of that, but at this moment, at least, I’m not.  Although today is filled with a lot to do and a lot done, it’s important to not lose sight of my goals either.  Life, true life, can be overwhelmed by the 1,000 things to do instead of the 1,000 years we can live in the short time we have here.  I want to enjoy every moment I have.  I don’t want life to be engulfed by rushing and stress, or sadness and regret, or anger and impatience.  Things come in their time.
When I was a kid there was a preview on TV for a made-for-TV movie, in which a man has cancer and he says something like, “I want to really live life and be grateful and enjoy the gift of life!”
I felt annoyed.  Why does it take a crisis to awaken us to our mortality, and our immortality?
Right now I’m waiting…and sometimes it seems like I’m waiting 1,000 years for what I want.  It’s okay. I’ll wait.  And while I wait, I’ll work.  If it takes 1,000 years then God must know that’s how much time I need in order to be ready. 
Maybe I need to learn to manage my thoughts and not let my thoughts manage me. 
Maybe I need to learn to laugh at myself and cry with others more. 
Maybe God has more that He wants to teach me. 
Maybe there are more people to help.
Maybe there are more books to read.
Maybe there are more pages to write.
Maybe it will take 1,000 years for me to become the man I am supposed to be.
I can wait.  I can wait for my Muse. I can wait for my house on the beach.  I can wait for God’s plan to unfold. I won’t die every day waiting for you.  I will live.  I will Get Started and Keep Going.
“One step closer.”