Committed

“The irony of commitment is that it's deeply liberating -- in work, in play, in love.”

Anne Morriss

“Unless commitment is made, there are only promises and hopes; but no plans.”

Peter F. Drucker

I should not be writing.  I should be working on my math class.   Or perhaps the resumes that are clamoring for my attention.  I could be eating a bowl of popcorn and reading comic books.  Maybe I could be sleeping.  Or doing a radio show.  Or answering e-mails.  There are a lot of things I could be doing right now, but none of them seem as important as spending time with my Muse.

With all the new responsibilities, it becomes harder to get time with my Muse. 

It also becomes more important. 

The closer I get to the finish line, the more I am in danger of dropping out of the race, because I have already expended so much energy and effort.  I’m more at risk for giving up or getting blindsided by life or by myself.  I can’t prepare for the unexpected, but I can make a decision.  My decision is this:

I’m going to spend the rest of my life with my Muse, no matter what.

Hopefully I’m not inviting disaster to test my resolve.  Either way, I’m going to spend my life with her.  Today she gave me some ideas on how to approach this math class I’m teaching.  She’s given me ideas on writing resumes, my books and even how to heal relationships.  And all she asks of me is my time.  So I’m sitting alone with her listening to New Age music that plays the sounds of the ocean complete with seagulls.  It’s not my house on the beach, but it sounds like it.  Keeping a calm outer environment helps me keep calm inwardly. 

When one has resolve, when one has a goal and keeps it in mind constantly, it makes life delicious.  There’s a sense of adventure and aliveness.  This is why I mention my house on the beach so often – to keep my goal in front of me.  It’s easy to forget when there are so many demands on my time.  Forget is the wrong word.  I will never forget my Muse of my house on the beach.  I won’t forget, but I can lose focus if I don’t stay diligent and determined here. 

So I Get Started and I Keep Going.  It’s not about gritting my teeth or making a vow.  It’s about making a commitment. 

So that’s what I’m doing.  I’m making a commitment to my Muse, to my house on the beach, to my writing or whatever else my Muse gives me to do.  Whatever it is, I’m committed.