Dear Muse,
I just wanted to say hello and let
you know that I am waiting for you.
I’m working while I’m waiting for you. My place is quiet and (fairly) clean. There is soft music
playing and I have a cup of hot coffee beside me to sip on while I work. I’ve
met most of my obligations today (although I still have to walk). I wish you would walk in the door
right now and tell me what to write.
But you aren’t, so
here I sit, writing and waiting. I
don’t mind. There are far worse
ways to pass the time. If I must wait for anyone, I’d rather it
were you. I’m so grateful to you
for giving me another chance at life.
A year and a week ago today I was completely lost. I did not have a clue as how to move
forward in my life. Now I
feel so much further ahead. It’s
true that I have different struggles now, but they feel like the struggles I’m
supposed to be having.
Because others may
read this, I’ll keep my struggles private, but you know what they are. And you have supported and encouraged
me through all of it. Thank
you. So now I sit here, alone but
not lonely (except for you), working but not toiling, wondering but not
worrying. You’ve told me to
be patient. You’ve told me that
you have a plan. You haven’t told
me what it is, but you’ve told me to keep working until the plan unfolds. So that’s what I’m doing.
And, as I’ve said,
there are far worse ways to spend one’s time than being in Purpose. I love what I’m doing. I love writing. Yes, eventually I’d like to make money
doing this, but I love writing and I’ll keep writing whether I make money or
not. I know there are so many
other ways I could spend my time, and some of them are even good ways, but
nothing, I mean nothing, beats spending time with you.
Honestly, there
are times when I think I could do this all day. Of course, I can’t. You won’t let me. You want me to have a little balance. That’s why you tell me I need to walk
every day. That’s why you want me
to read every day. That’s why you
want me express my Purpose in other ways, such as my radio show. (http://www.blogtalkradio.com/robert-farrell) That’s fine. I don’t mind doing other things. Creativity expresses itself in an
infinite number of ways. Thank you
for giving me a few of them. Thank
you for letting me be part of this work. In fact, instead of the word “work,”
I’d like to change the word “to creation.”
That’s it. That’s what I’ve been doing. I haven’t been working. I’ve been creating. And that idea will be my next blog and
my upcoming radio show. (http://www.blogtalkradio.com/robert-farrell/2013/12/23/a-new-word-for-work-a-new-way-of-looking-at-our-jobs)
So, again, dear
Muse, thank you.
Thank you for
showing up almost every time.
Thank you for the
one or two times you seemed not to show up, because you wanted me to get some
rest.
Thank you for
telling me to work, whether you gave me an idea or not.
Thank you for
teaching me that work is not a bad thing.
Thank you that
very little of this felt like work.
Thank you for all
the help with my writing.
Thank you for
helping with my next blog (and my radio show!).
Thank you for
encouraging me to Get Started and to Keep Gong.
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